A lady at the Grace Life Conference through "Shepherd's Call" last night admitted to a failed commitment. It was right there, glued to her Bible so she read it aloud. It was something about bringing the Gospel to those in other far away places ... like Africa, and that she would be committed to become a missionary with all that she could muster from her heart and soul , or something like that.
She signed it years ago. She isn't overseas. She blew that commitment.
AND so have I ... dozens of times
I just wish I had thought to glue one of my commitments to my Bible, so that I could carry around a written reminder of how "all that I could muster" never amounted to much. But, the reminders remain, just not in written form.
If you have made one of those Christian commitments and kept it, then you can always hold that over my head. I've never kept it. I'm just not able.
I'm not a "promise keeper" and I never will be. I'm so defeated by my own weakness that I'm no longer a "promise maker" either.
It was 18.5 years ago when I burned out on religion, and I first admitted: "I can't"
To that God told me this: "What took you so long to admit it?"
He never said that we could, for apart from Him we can do nothing.
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09/26/06 @ 09:28 Know this, Beloved, some of the boys represent people in your life and the world, who will try to cut you down and sway you from your task; and all represent the many hordes of demons sent by the evil one, for they can not desecrate your beliefs, so they will try to rip them from your body with pain and anguish. (Persevere When Adversity Comes...Your Redemption Draws Nigh - Letters from God and His Christ - Volume 1)
