On a scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being reckless/radical trust ... I want to be a 10.
What advice can you offer that may help?
Shed the skin of this world and put on Christ and walk in the fruit therein, and have peace, joy and love, of such a kind that surpasses understanding, nor is it of the kind that one can find in the world...
Trust in Me...
And know I am with you always, even to the end of this age and ever after.
Sing amen, beloved. Sing for Me, and you shall behold My glory...
the glory of God's one and only unique Son...who was given up for you."
Romans 8:28
Furthermore, we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called in accordance with his purpose;...
And yes, there is forgiveness for those who ask in faith, with remorse, and total acceptance of My love...forgiveness always. ~ Jesus [Letters from God and His Christ - Volume 4 - Walk Not Where Others Walk]